people say love hurts. but what hurts is losing a loved one.
to know that all that love is fading away.
the confusion of deciding what to do next.
to move on or to hang on.
to move on is to lose everything and to hope for something better.
to hang on is to bite my lips and make best of what i have.
i missed the time when we were still simple and plain. when we hugged, everything felt so real. look at me now. how much do i resemble of my past? not that change is bad but now all i do is fear that when i lose my looks i end up with nothing.
how can i not doubt our love when you get angry and ashamed when i look bad. if you wanna give me some fashion advice i'll accept but please put it less crudely. i am after all someone whom you love and you should care for my feelings more. it really spoils my day when you put me down early in the morning.
are you able to make a fool of yourself to show your love for me?
or is pride more important?
i'm someone who needs someone crazy. who is able to yell out loud that you love me. i dont need nail polish i dont need slimming treatments. i dont care so why must you care so much about my looks. i know i'm not perfect but cant we make it more interesting? like exercising together? remember when we went swimming together? how much fun we had.. i love those things. i just want to watch the world go by with you beside me.
so please. bring me to climb a mountain. i'll be waiting for you.
posted by SpoinkAgeat
music mayhem
such a long absence from here.. but anyway i'm back:)
been really busy with projects and still am busy with projects.
for the past two days i had my co camp, last saturday i had a co welcoming party. some days ago i went to raorao's guitar concert. met some juniors there. the concert was alright and i rmb there is this 11yr old boy, very damn good at the guitar man.. sadly he played a song that people barely appreciate.
a few days later i should be meeting with my friends again. meeting corine and zhehan on thurs:) oh which is tmr! haha.. blur me.
so.. a rough talk about my co cmap. its basically a young musicians camp for the secondary kids to come NYP. i was assigned to usher them and be their tour guide. luckily i had a funny partner, Tan Liang, so for most of the time the kids were entertained. The kids that we had to look after were dominated by mayflower sec girls and there was only two from beatty, one girl and one boy. so they kept really quiet throughout the day coz both were shy. i tried to entertain them but didnt get much reaction.. BUT on the second day of the camp, the beatty girl waved to me! i was so surprised and quite happy. at least my efforts were not wasted. and my partner Tan Liang, though the very china name, is a very english guy.
and.. my headphones broke down:( gotta buy a new one now...............................................
sobs.
ohwell that is what i work for. emergencies like this. but! no time to shop leh.. hahaha:(
well.. dont really wish to talk mush. going to work later. without my headphones:( sigh.. and i very hungry now.
till next time.
THE END!!
posted by SpoinkAgeat
